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Mary
12 April 2010 @ 05:03 pm
not to complain about finances some more. and i don't want you to feel bad for me (or offer scholarships--shaylagh!)but we got the financial aid information from loyola this afternoon and it looks like we can't afford that either. so you'll be the first to hear, even before my dad, that i think i'll probably end up at unh next year. but i've been thinking a lot about this in the past week or so and i know i'm going to be really disappointed in myself, but should i actually go to unh, i can graduate without paying a cent of my own money and not own anything when i get out either. from the financial way of thinking, it is definitely the way to go.

and i know i'm going to feel bad for saying this, but i wish my parents could have made enough to pay for college, or not enough to qualify for more financial aid. though i don't ever expect them to actually pay for the whole thing. i know it must be really tough and a lot to ask of them when they already have to raise a family of 5 and send 3 kids through at least 4 years of college.

it's just kind of funny and ironic (i DO see the irony) that after all the effort i put into getting into any college BUT unh, that's probably the only one i have the slightest chance of going to now. ugh.

on a brighter note: time for yoga!
 
 
Mary
well i know that some people were saying that today was a horrible day and that it was destined to be so simply for the fact that it was thursday. and i'm sorry to break it to you, but i had a wonderful thursday. it was long, but good.

--we finished filming our world religions project,
--i finished a bracelet today after working on it during lunch, guitar (we watched a movie that i had already seen in piano), and physics. rob loves it and i'm starting shaylagh's tonight!
--i turned in my money for the ap spanish exam (which i will have to take in concord AT ST. PAULS!!! at 8am, but that's ok, it's on the language and not literature, so hopefully i'll get a 5, or a 4 at the very least),
--i still have a few scholarship things to finish, but then most of those will be done.
--play practice was fun today,
--and when i got out of singing practice, there was a message on my phone from the golick's lady who wants to have an interview with me,
--the only downer today was that when i got home, the first thing my mom said to me was that there was bad news and that i had a small envelope from bates. they rejected me or rather "we cannot offer you admission." i'm sad because it was tied for second with fairfield for the ones i want to go to. but i'm going to look on the bright side of things and see it as one less dificult decission i have to make in the next month.

here's to hoping that your day was at least decent, if not great.
 
 
Mary
THINGS I LOVE:
1. nick jonas
2. being happy
3. no school days
4. basting music and dancing around...
5. when you have the house to yourself
6. the fact that spring is right around the corner
7. the fact that so are college acceptances
8. when there are no english words to describe a feeling,
    so you have to resort to describing it in spanish

i just wanted to share with all of you HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW
and i don't know why
i just had this sudden wave of feliz-ness (see #8) wash over me
and i thought that i should post

hope you're all enjoying your no-school day as much as i am

ps. here's another song, it's almost tradition that i leave you with one:
Nick Jonas and the Administration - Last Time Around

so to my beautiful babes:
muah. hugs and kisses. besos y abrazos. love forever and ever. les amo tanto ♥ maria
 
 
Current Music: Nick J - Last Time Around
 
 
Mary
buckle up. this is going to be a long story...

well not really a story but i haven't posted in way too long and shaylash's recent spurts have put me in the mood to talk, so here goes

so first order of buisiness. i found a new song that i like (i always give you guys songs) but, just a heads up, this one's country. Eric Church - Hell on the Heart. the chorus is wicked cute and made me chuckle at the end:
She's as pretty as a picture
Every bit as funny as she is smart
Got a smile that'll hold you together
And a touch that'll tear you apart
When she's yours she brings the sunshine
When she's gone the world goes dark
Yeah, she's heaven on the eyes
But boy she's hell on the heart

i've been getting closer to the band, and as ms. laczynski pointed out, yes, i've started to call them "the band." so close in fact that i'm making them all matching hats with their names to wear for whenever they perform, or so choose (which will hopefully be often)

saturday night was sooooo much fun with "the band" at our new hang out spot, cafe nostimos. i love their chicken tenders with duck sauce!!! and apparently the kids menu items are only for kids 10 and under. unless you're friends with the owners' kid. good thing me and nico are tight. but they basically serenaded us all night (shaylagh will agree). sitting in the front row, with special seats is pretty fun. and so is taylor! btw her video camera skillz are CRAZY!!! but we had so much fun.

clarisse - i wish you were there. these guys are so much fun and it makes me sad that we don't hang out as much as we used to. and i'm sorry for kind of yelling at you on friday. I MISS YOU!!!

my new room is finally done being painted and such and i moved the majority of my furniture in a little over a week ago now. the first night it was really wierd sleeping on the first floor by myself. and i even found a hole in the wall and was convinced that someone had drilled through and was spying on my in my sleep, so i got up and put some stuff in front of it. i still don't know what the hole is from, but i'm less paranoid now. the only drawback about the room is that it's right next to the kitchen, bathroom and living room. so yes, prime location, but also the most "traffic." everyone can hear what i'm doing in my room (don't think dirty thoughts, mostly just listening to music) and i can hear everything said in those rooms as well. grrr. but i love having a room to myself soooo much.

and probably the most climactic of my stories, my huge fight with my mom on valentine's day:
i'll just bullet the main points because i'm tired and want to go to bed
-katie was recording a show on the dvd player
-i didn't know, so i started watching something, which messed her recording up
-she freaks and calls me stupid (through tears! yes she is crying over this)
-my mom comes and asks me to move so she can watch her show
-i present her with the fact that katie can watch her show somewhere else, etc. etc.
-she gets frustrated and so do i
-i jump out of my chair scream it's not worth it and forfeit (sp?) the tv
-i start to run to my room (that's 2 feet away, very theatrical, right?)
-she yells at me to come back, i don't
-she calls me a "shithead" for not listening to her, and tells me that just because i'm 18, doesn't mean i can run away from her (underlying insecurities? idk, but for obvious reasons i didn't point it out then)
and the moral of the story: she hasn't spoken to me since (2 days). i kind of like the quiet and having her off my back. and katie's mad at me too, so she's not talking to me either. it's so quiet. i realize that the point of the silent treatment is to make me upset/needing her and run to her begging for forgiveness, right? but i'm perfectly capable of being self-sustaining at this point in my life and i don't even need her to get me to school, or make my supper or whatever. they think college will be a big wake up call for me, but it will be for them too.

on the snow day today i LITERALLY ate, mailed a scholarship appication, went to my room and watched the entirety of oklahoma! while knitting, took a shower, ate lunch while reading the last chapter of my english homework, knit some more, checked facebook, installed ALL of the sims and their expansion packs that i have (like 20,000), while knitting and texting various people. and in the end i finished a hat. i started with one and a half earflaps and i finished the hat. pompom, tassles, and border crochet included. it's completely done.

so now i'm going to bed, having had an extra day to study and get homework done, and i'm still going to fail my world religions test, and possibly my spanish quiz. but it's all good. because colleges don't get third quarter grades. and because there will be pb fudge in adams' tomorrow!

ps. i need a boyfriend - get on that shaylagh

over and out.
 
 
Current Music: Eric Church - Hell on the Heart
 
 
Mary
14 December 2009 @ 08:08 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0SZhu-b_yQ&feature=related

clarisse - this one is for you

i found a band that i really like "The Civil Wars" and the girl in the group had a few solo albums and i really liked this song. then i saw that it was from a grey's season premiere and i knew that i had to post it here for you

also if you are so inclined, listen to The Civil Wars - Poison and Wine. great song!
 
 
Current Music: Speaking a Dead Language
 
 
Mary
So my room is developing nicely. The wall is up, the windows are in and we are working on picking a paint color right now. I'm thinking a dark green, but my mom doesn't want to go any darker than "celery." It's actually pretty small, and there's no closet, so i'll have to cover almost ever part of every wall with shelves and drawers to put my clothes and other stuff in.

Unfortuanately my sister is starting to get involved in the process now. That is a VERY VERY BAD thing. She thinks that just because my bed isn't in there yet, that it's not my room. MISTAKE #1. My parents also let her sand down the walls, and let her do this without telling me. MISTAKE #2.

Sidestory: So today i was taking a nap, and i woke up to hear some static-y voices coming from upstairs. So i went up to see what it was and katie is on the phone (on speaker) with her friends telling them about a naked mole rat / hampster / rodent-of-some-sort that they want to buy. Christ was right by and when i asked her to take her phone off speaker, she ran away. I asked Chris what she was talking about and he said that they are trying to take a nocternal animal and change its sleep patterns. First off, it's aweful that they are testing their curiosity on an inoccent animal (even though that won't really hurt it) and what are they going to do with a rodent?

So i went downstairs to get some food and katie is still on the phone, still on speaker, and i asked her to turn it off again. SHE WALKED INTO MY ROOM thinking that i wouldn't hear her from there. MISTAKE #3. So i freak out, run over there and tell her to get out of MY ROOM. and she tells me that none of my crap is in there and that it's not my room yet. So i asked her whose it was? and she's like, "Not yours." Real original. Then she so kindly informed me that my parents had given her permission to sand while they weren't there, and i reminded her that she wasn't sanding, so she could leave, now.

Then i decided that i didn't want to have that argument with her and she is (though i hate to admit it) better at fighting with people (which is probably because she practices so often). So i just said, fine, you want to stay here, then stay here, stay here all day... and walked away. I felt so satisfied after and she eventually came out, but i really wanted to see her face as i walked away, but that would have ruined the whole thing, so i didn't.

I hate arguing with her. But we've been fighting all day at this point, and the two of us did groceries with my mom today and when we're fighting, she hates being around us and she gets grumpy. So that was fun: my mom basically walked through the store (very slowly) and took things off the shelf and put them in the carraige while katie and i followed behind, hating each other. That was groceries.

Now that i've written all that i do feel better, bu now i have to go down and make myself some dinner and i know that katie will be in the kitchen watching tv and i will get into a fight with her about that because i don't want to watch wrestling and she will, but she'll be eating and i'll be cooking, so neither of us can watch tv anywhere else and it'll end up being turned off because we can't agree. then she will eat slowly and drag it out for as long as it takes so that she is still eating long after i've cooked, cleaned, and eaten, then she will have the satisfaction of getting "her" tv again. just like it's not "my" room, right?
 
 
Mary
27 October 2009 @ 10:03 pm

new favorite song for the moment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pz_VRbjK7ck&feature=PlayList&p=6AE0A0CA069EAE0B&index=7

also, looking for a senior quote, I'm thinking of these ones:
  1. Obstacles are put in our way to see if we really want to reach our goals or if we just thought we did.

  1. I'd rather be hated for who I am, than to be loved for who I am not.

  1. Memory is a way of holding onto the thing you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. -"The Wonder Years"

  1. "It's hard to fail, but it is worse to never have tried to succeed" -theodore roosevelt, 1899
~VOTE!

and i'm just going to say that i'm so glad that 1st quarter is almost over, although that means that major college decisions are that much closer to the deadlines. ugh. by the time this is over i won't even care what colleges i get into as long as this process is over. I will, but you know what i mean
 
 
Mary

Wow. It’s been a long time since I’ve posted anything. Right now I’m in the car driving from Holy Cross to Stonehill College with my mom. I will post my review of Holy Cross and maybe Stonehill (if I haven’t finished writing this by the time we have our tour).

 

I wanted to tell you guys about my field trip to the jail on Wednesday and I just haven’t had time to write about it and I feel like we haven’t all been together long enough to have a detailed conversation about anything lately. So here goes:

 

When we first got there, we walked in the building into this little sitting area. They made us take off our belts and jewelry and leave any cell phones there before we could actually start the tour. Once everyone had gone through (Mrs. Gingras set it off and had to go back and take off her rings and bracelets) we got a long shpeel about how we still need to treat the inmates with respect and that they are people too. He (the officer giving us the tour) told us that there were people in tan uniforms who were the people who had not been to trial yet and were therefore not proven guilty yet. The ones in the green uniforms had been convicted and were there serving their time.
 

When the tour began, the first stop was the place where the majority of the inmates were housed. It was a giant (actually probably pretty small seeing as it could hold up to 162 people) room about the size of half the school gym. It was a half-circle shape and the officer’s desk was at one end of the room strategically placed so that they could see everything that went on in the room. There were showers and bathrooms that only had a curtain (that didn’t even go all the way to the ground) and that was all there was for a “door” to the bathroom. This “bathroom” was right off of the main room so that the officer in charge could monitor everything that happened. There was a little room with see-trough doors off this larger room that had one basket ball hoop and that was all they were given for recreation. And the only other thing that was available to them was the phones through the glass windows where they can talk to their family members. The officer told us that they have 5 head counts every day and during those times they need to stay in their rooms while they are being counted. Once that was over and at all other times they could watch TV etc. in that half-circle room.
 

After that stop we walked past maximum security (which we stopped by and I will talk about later). One thing that struck me as strange is when we were walking down the hallway and an inmte walked past us going in the other direction. No guards, no one watching him, all by himself, just walking down the hallway. Part of me was scared, but then I thought he must be one of the more responsible ones that was given privileges and was able to move around on his own. Mrs. Gingras started chatting with one of the security guards that she apparently knew.
 

The tour guy took us to the place where the people come when they are first being admitted into the jail. There is this little lobby where they can sit, watch TV, make as many phone calls as they want to, and can even take a nap while their files are being processed. He said that they are pretty much free to do whatever they wanted, but if an officer told them to sit up and they didn’t, right away they would be put into a room with no windows and only a hole in the ground (that flushes) for a bathroom, which is required by law. If they were better after that they would be moved to a room with windows and an actual toilet, however the windows took up the whole wall so they could watch their every move and that included using the new toilet. While he was explaining all this, there were about 5-10 guys that were watching us from the windows of one of the rooms on the side of the hallway and it kinda creeped me out, but they couldn’t get to us.
 

After that we went to see the rooms where they had rehab for people who were there for addictions to alcohol and drugs. They (approx. 15 women) were confined to a room probably close to the size of Clarisse bedroom and they were there for 3 months. They were not allowed to leave that room except for an hour a day, 3 days a week. They HAD to wake up at 530 and got to bed at 900. Other than that they weren’t allowed to even sit on their bunks. They had quiet time for 2 hours each day and intense classes and homework for their rehab stuff. The men had a different room, that was slightly bigger, but there were also about twice as many of them. For the first month of this treatment they were not allowed to leave the room, call their family, of do anything basically. The lady who was in charge of this program talked to us and told us that none of these people were here because they were forced to be; all of them had volunteered to take the program, or were there to shorten their sentence, but it was because they wanted to. I thought that was very impressive and have a lot of respect for people who wanted to do that and have that amount of self-control to go through a program that intense.
 

Then we went back to maximum security and saw that all the guys looked pretty violent or at least capable of being very violent. [tour at stonehill] They were nothing like the guy who was just walking down the hallway from before. There were about 4 guys watching the rooms and they were talking to the inmates through a P.A. system.

After this was my favorite part. We got to hear the stories of 3 guys who were in the jail. The first guy, Marcus told us about how he has been in and out of jail for the past 19 years. He started selling marijuana and cocaine when he was 14. He had a girlfriend and two children that he hardly ever gets to see. HE started tearing up when he was talking about how his mother was an alcoholic and died because of it, and he wasn’t able to be there for her when she needed him. He said that she wasn’t always there for him, which is part of why he went down the wrong road, but when she was there for him, she was there for him. His dad was never in the picture and he went in and out of foster homes and eventually got kicked out of the system because he was so rebellious. His main point was that there are only a few choices separating us from them and that we had to make sure we chose correctly. He said how, when he was our age, he would always make fun of the “dumbass dorks” that would be in his class, yet today, that dork was probably taking care of his family and holding down a well-paying job, all the things he wanted to do for his family, but can’t because he’s in jail.
 

The next guy, Michael, was also there because of distributing drugs. He was only raised by his mother and apparently he and Marcus had been friends on the streets and knew each other before being in jail. Michael had a wife and kids too and will be moving to a different, federal, jail in 2 weeks. He hasn’t been told where he will be going, but he won’t be able to see his family as much as he does now, although when he does, he will be able to touch them (at Strafford County Jail they can only speak to each other through the glass windows, and can’t touch each other). Mr. Lloyd asked Marcus and Michael if they thought their sentences were justified and both immediately said “absolutely not.” They explained that depending on the amount of drugs you are distributing, you get more years. Michael was caught with 30g of marijuana and will have to do 25 years. They feel like that is unfair, I kind of agree.
 

The last guy, Chris told us that he used t hate his mother for being an alcoholic, and didn’t even kiss her goodbye on her deathbed; in fact, he couldn’t even stand to be next to her. Now, he said, he feels guilty and hypocritical because he is in the intensive rehab program at the jail. He didn’t do much talking, but he basically agreed with the other two on everything they said. He mentioned that any guys, on his first day in jail, will try to act all tough and macho, but will end up crying that first night and both of the other guys started nodding their heads quietly.
 

(This is before the conversation actually started) When we got to the room where we were going to be talking with the three guys, the first asked us what we had thought of the jail. Paul Goodspeed raises his hand and says he thinks it looks very humane. Then, through the whole discussion, they kept referring to “Mr. Humane”’s comment and how it didn’t feel so humane when they were strip searched upon entering the facility and how the officers sometimes treated you.

 

It was deffinately an eye-opening experience that I won’t forget anytime soon and I feel bad for them that they have chosen such a hard path, but I’m glad that they have seen where they went wrong and have people who love them and want them to do better,and that they want to do better themselves. Chris said something during his turn to talk that I thought was mildly profound: “You find out the people who love you in three places, the hospital, jail, and at your funeral.”

 

HOLY CROSS

§         On a hill

§         Tour guides: Alice (senior), Tara (Junior), Julie (Sophomore)

§         Brand new science buildings

§         Study abroad are full year

§         Are required classes (ex. 1 English class, 1 math class, etc.)

§         Main library (4 total) has 5 stories

§         Wireless campus (even for non-HC people as we found out in the car) and a thing with Dell to buy computers through the school, also Mac friendly

§         Large pipe organ in the main church

§         No climbing trees

§         Athletic fields at the top of the hill and bottom of the hill

§         Rarely forced triple dorms

§         Cinder block dorm  “kinda dark”

§         Only 4 classes per semester

§         “Montserrat” classes with people from your dorms

§         Sports teams and club teams and intramural teams

§         Different gym for athletes and other students

§         Free gym access and yoga classes etc. to HC students

§         Pre-med, pre-law, and pre-business are all separate “concentrations”

§         Free printing in the libraries, 10cent “professional” copies

§         Cleaning service with trash removal and vacuuming

§         This is the place where they couldn’t find the dorm room to look at, asked the other kid, he said he would clean his room, and then we found one at the other end of the hall. There was also the kid without a shirt on that we scared back into his room.

§         Kelsey Smith goes here

§         Freshmen and sophomores can’t have cars

 

STONEHILL

§         Rachel Ness is here

§         Tour guides: ______, Senior the short girl who couldn’t walk backwards in her black flats. And Dan, from Gloucester (friends with everybody), junior computer science major

§         Long walk, long tour

§         Nice bathroom, electronic paper towel dispensers

§         Free laundry, copying

§         No microwaves allowed

§         Most of campus is wireless, but the suggest Ethernet cable

§         New science center

§         Only one major cafeteria

§         “The Hill” beneath the cafeteria for coffeehouses and movie screenings

§         Honors program for top 10% of freshman

§         Looks like summer camp in some parts

§         Post office beneath  cafeteria

§         One freshman dorm that is SOOOOO FAR from EVERYTHING

§         Freshman can’t have cars

§         One all-girls dorm

§         Other dorms are boys in one wing/floor, girls separate

§         Cannot bunk beds unless you have  a triple

§         MUST have a meal plan and flex points, other money is optional

§         Towns of Easton and Brockton use chapel for service

 

 

P.S. Thanks for actually reading all of that, I know it was long, but I know you guys actually sat there and read the whole thing. It took me about an hour to write.

 

 
 
Mary
So i was bored while eating an apple and peanut butter, so i ate at my computer while reading some of the featured stories at yahoo.com. Eventually i was redirected to cosmopolitan.com and an article suggesting that monthly fluctuations in testosterone levels could create PMS-like symptoms in men. i thought that was interesting and informative and that i should pass on my newly-aquired knowledge.

also the carpenter guys came today to look at where we would make my room downstairs. It's getting closer, I can feel it. All my parentals want is an estimate. Assuming its not outragiouly too much, I'll probably  have a room by the first few weeks of school.

Aaaaaandd... since my grandmother insists that she is capeable of living at her house by herself and my stupid uncle took her to renew her license and since they only checked her eyes instead of a rode test (even though she cant even stand without her walker, and even then we've had hospitalizing spills) her car is now in our driveway, along wiht all the rest of them, so that she cant drive anywhere -slash- kill anybody. but the house is much quieter and there's much less fighting now that she's not here. I know it sounds bad, but i'm glad she's not in our dining room anymore. It just removes so much stress from everybody.

Anyway, thats just a short post while i was eating my apple.

p.s. Shaylagh, just so you know Mitchell is mine now. he passes my groom test of choosing between two items (Clarisse understands what i'm talking about). i know you're going to hate me and reassert your claim, while feeling a little terretorial, but clarisse has just done such a good job! Clarisse--please train my little brother too!!!
 
 
Mary
12 August 2009 @ 11:41 pm

it said my last post was too large with the whole thing in it, so i just broke i up into twp seperate posts...


FAIRFIELD

After tour:

§         Tour guide: Katie Hasset from N. Andover (rising Junior)

§         Like BC, only not as hilly

§         Is a core curriculum

§         Spate wings for boys and girls in dorms

§         Nice chapel with 3 masses per Sunday (1100, 430, 900)

§         Big library

§         Math rooms don’t have smart boards (at least very few of them)

§         Large cafeteria (only one we heard mentioned)

§         FUSA building was really big, modern, nice looking

§         Lots students activities, run by FUSA that students actually want to go to

§         Shopping trips to NYC

§         Movies out on the quad (between the dorms)

§         Separate gym for athletes/students (except for pool)

§          

 

SACRED HEART

After tour:

§         Segregated dorms for freshman and sophomores

§         Separate building for freshman in early-decision and honors programs

§         Suite styles for sophomore

§         Juniors can apartments or suite style

§         Seniors can have apartments/ townhouses

§         Dorm hallways don’t look like jails

§         Dorms come with fridges and microwaves

§         Separate wings for boys and girls

§         Can have family visit, need to sign them in ahead of time, boys must stay with boys

§         Common room on each floor of the dorms

§         12% Greek, but no Greek housing

§         1 sophomore dorm by the athletic fields

§         1 major hill, like BC

§         New student lounge (“red sox on one side, Yankees on the other, free food in the middle”)

§         New chapel, shaped like a tent

§         Health and recreation center at the top of the hill

§         This is the one where we parked as far away as possible

§         Tour guide: _______ from Pennsylvania, already graduated

§         Mr. SHU competition, SHU idol etc

§         Upperclassmen help freshman unpack on first day

 

VASSAR

After tour:

§         Tour guide: John (rising sophomore), drama major. Minor in education and creative writing

§         Old building

§         Hidden away behind trees, off the street with mini-traffic circles

§         No core curriculum, must take writing-intensive, foreign language, and quantitative

§         Piano in every dorm building

§         Stay in dorms for the first 3 years, usually

§         Can move out sophomore year

§         Juniors and seniors can get singles, 50% sophomores

§         A lot of different languages and will bring in tutors (sign language, Swahili)

§         Meditation room and café in the library

§         Rose and gray / maroon and pewter colors

§         Monthly-rotating art exhibit

§         Night club on campus, open till 2 am

§         Trees are protected, NO CLIMBING!

§         Very flat, good for bikes

§         Man-made lake that they hold functions at, not very large

§         Dorms are co-ed and co-year

 

MARIST

§         Very green, hilly

§         Right on a river

After tour

§         Tour guides: Amber (rising senior) from Kingston, NY // Whitney (rising senior) from Missouri

§         Hilly with a lot of stairs

§         Looked modern, many stone buildings

§         9-floor freshman dorm

§         Points-system for dorm lottery, I did NOT like that! (gain points for GPA, community service and club/extracurricular activities)

§         Had my little house!

§         Amber studied abroad in Spain, her Sra. Ironed her socks

§         Rte. 9 runs straight through  campus

§         I liked dorms, not much more than others, but they were ok

§         Only freshman live in dorms

§         Sophomores live in suite-style, must clean up after themselves

§         Juniors and seniors have apartment-style houses

§         Right on the Hudson river

§         Large/new library

§         Big classroom (they said that not all the desks were used)

§         Gym not very well air conditioned

§         90% students are guaranteed housing all 4 years



those are just a few things i jotted down during the trip.